It All Starts/Ends Today

Today is my fresh start. I'm turning 30 in less than 5 months and I want to be better in my 30's than I have been in my 20's. I'm tired of hating my body. I'm tired of feeling undesirable. I'm tired of feeling like people who think I'm attractive are either crazy or lying to my face. I'm tired of wondering if I'm not getting jobs because I'm overweight (and therefore ugly in the eyes of directors). I'm sure that my self esteem issues run far deeper than just my weight, but if I could eliminate weight as the primary stressor, maybe I could begin to deal with my issues in a more healthy manner. I want to be better. I want to look good in my eventual wedding/engagement photos. I want to be a healthy vessel for eventually carrying children. I want to set healthy habits in place so that I can pass them on to my progeny. And now is the time.

Fit By 30

I'm turning 30 this year, which is weird. I feel like, at 30, you're supposed to solidly reside in Adult Land, and I feel like a part-time resident at best. Like, I'm the child who lives somewhere else and occasionally comes to visit her parents and friends in Adult Land. In preparation for this birthday, I'm trying to get several things in line.

1. My house-keeping skills. It's no great secret that I am wont to let the dishes stay in the sink too long or to let the laundry pile up or to let my desk and entry table get cluttered. But that stops now. I don't expect this to fix itself instantaneously because Rome wasn't built in a day, but so far, I'm off to a pretty good start.

2. My career. This is a tough one. Just stay tuned.

3. My health. I have never, ever truly been in good shape, but that changes this year. I've kicked things off well in the month of January. I'm down 10 pounds (probably mostly the dreaded Holiday Bloat, but it's gone nonetheless), and I'm almost done with my latest run training undertaking, which means I'll be running 10K in just a couple of weeks. I have a lot more work to do, but the progress I've made thus far is very encouraging. I am under no illusions that I will do this well every month, but I came out of the gate with a bang, so hopefully I can keep some momentum.